A Little Update.

Hello there! So just dropped in to give a little update of my humility week so far. :) So first off, I was super excited yesterday morning to start my day barefoot! It felt so weird going to my math class barefoot. I definitely felt the stares of everyone I passed. But I wasn't ashamed. Because didn't God say we're supposed to be set apart for a reason? Because its His love that changes us. :) But anyway, I had alot of people ask why I was barefoot. So of course I told them the whole story why I was doing it and how this week I was trying to become more humble. I thought it was such a God thing that the first week, my first day of this challenge, I picked being barefoot. Something that gets people attention for them to ask me, & for me to share with them what Gods been doing in my life. I'm not saying, "Oh my gosh, I'm so cool! I did good picking that out for my first day!" I'm not trying to say that at all. That was a God thing. And I really hope I made some people I talked to really think. Because the whole point of me doing all of this is not for my glory, but for His. For me to become a better wife for my future spouse & a better woman of God as well. But anyway, so I went the WHOLE day barefoot. Yep, you heard me right! I had to go through the drive through picking up dinner (haha) & my feet hurt so bad last night. But it was worth it! They are so many kids who don't have the luxury I do; putting on shoes the next day & scrubbing their feet clean from the past day. Honestly it gave me a new appreciation for them. I think I'm going to order a pair of TOMS shoes when I have enough money again.

So next, today was my day without makeup. Alright so I figured out something very vain about myself today. I found out that I'm one of those girls who if she doesn't look good, she doesn't feel good. I realized that when I got home after rehearsal. I mean I had a few hectic things going on today, but I was just so cranky. And I realized why. I have let makeup become a daily thing for me to feel good about myself. I'm ashamed. I wish I wasn't like that, but I am. I wish I could change that, & you know what? I'm going to try to find a way to change that. I don't know if that means I'll stop wearing so much makeup or stop wearing makeup period, but I need to stop focusing on looks. I was actually doing my devotion this morning, & as I was talking to God, I knew this was a day I needed to face. Because people need to see me as I really am. How God created me. Especially my future spouse. Now I'm not sure if he is in my life right now, but I need to get use to the fact that guys will see me without makeup. And really, whats wrong with that? My future spouse needs to know what I look like without all the junk on my face, to appreciate my real beauty. And not only him, but I need to be more attracted to his heart & character than anything else.

Thats what this challenge is suppose to be about. Focusing on the heart more than whats outside.