Maybe I'm Not as Ready as I Thought

I've been thinking about this for the longest time. My 18th birthday is less than three months away. That means I'll be allowed to date...the question is, will I be ready? It didn't occur to me until the middle of October that maybe I won't be ready to date by then. What really scares me, what if my judgement is clouded?

I've always been safe over my parent's rule. Both of them, especially my dad (haha), have always made sure I be careful by how close I get to a guy. I've always told guys upfront too, that I'm not allowed to date until I'm eighteen, & if they really like me, they'll wait. Both times that has happened...it hasn't ended well. Which has been hard on me, but I know that it wasn't God's will for me to be with them. When I finally toke a step back, I saw that they were both not mature in God as they let on. Which was stupid on both of our parts. So you can learn about what to look for in a guy, even if you're not in a "relationship".

The thing is, how can I be trusted to hold up the spiritual side of a relationship? I'm tired of doing that! Of being more spiritual than the guy I'm attracted to. It's so frustating to me to know one can become so close to God by a few easy steps, but they chose not to for whatever reason, mainly laziness. (Not just in guys, but girls too)

How could a guy be out there for me? Is there honestly guys out there my age that are on fire for the Lord? Because I seriously don't know any.

I don't want to just be in a relationship. I want a guy that is committed to me & spurs me on towards Christ's love all the more when I'm with him.

What Does Being Luke warm Accomplish?

Something that God has been teaching me lately is how much more there is to life than being luke warm in our Faith. Let me ask you a question. What will you get by being luke warm? Not just in our walk with God, but in general. How many things will you get accomplished in your life if you never go out there & actually try?

It has made me beyond frustated lately when I see Christians dead in their faith. When I see they don't have a right to call themselves Christians by how they act. If God is in your heart, you can tell if you've CHANGED!! You can tell you are maturing as a follower of Christ & as a person if you have daily time with the Lord. It makes me beyond sick that I know alot of people who are searching for happiness in all the wrong places when they already know Jesus!! They search for it in relationships, I see that every day. In money, in friendships, in careers. When will people realize they will NEVER be happy in any of these situations until they're happy in a relationship with God alone?!!

Maybe we aren't really Christians if we act this way. What will happen if we keep this up & when we go to heaven God says, "Depart from me, I never knew you." What kind of example are we giving to non believers when we call ourselves Christains, but act the same way they do?! What happens when we let life pass us by? How much our life means to us when we grow in God & realize what our spiritual gift is.

"You can't reach the nations for the Gospel of Christ if you live a comfortable life, and you can't reach anyone if you live a compromising life." - Dr. Ed Pruitt.

So please, my fellow brothers & sisters in Christ, let's grow up & live up to calling ourselves Christians before we destroy that name entirely.